Eid mubaraak and recent updates..

Salam alaikom,

Eid mubaraak my brothers and sisters in Islaam!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) I hope it's not too late to wish that.. Insha Allah everyone had a good Eid? :) I know I did because I had a lot to eat teehehe..

I know that I dropped off from the grid for awhile now (not too sure about other sisters though) but I had been going through a rough patch lately.

First, I discovered a painful lump at the back of my head and my throat. I have no idea why it came about because I had been in a pink of health. And you know, being an on-off hypochondriac, in my head I had a feeling it was malignant but my sister ruled it out that all I needed was antibiotics and that should do the trick. Al-hamdulillah, I was better a few days later.

Then I went for my holidays and despite it being an awesome shopping trip, the car break-in spoilt everything. The windows of our cars were smashed and valuables were taken. Again, al-hamdulilah our cars were not stolen instead! I thought they stole my new pairs of socks that I bought lol, because I saw the plastic bag that I kept my socks was on the ground along with the broken glasses, empty. About $5000 worth of our things were stolen that night, but none of my things were stolen. Even if they did, I had nothing more than just dirty laundry and Islamic books I purchased there. It isn't much of a steal, would it? haha.

When I got back, I developed some sort of rash that I thought would go away in a few hours. It wasn't very itchy but the red spots remained and the more I look at it, the more I feel like scratching. At the end of the night, my whole body was covered with red spots and we all thought it was either mumps or chicken pox. My sister saw the next day and said that it was a form of skin inflammation. There isn't a cure for it so I have to let it run it's course which will last for 4-6 weeks! Subhna Allah... I don't know how I can survive for the next 4-6 weeks with this. My whole body feels a bit swollen and it hurts even if touched lightly.

These are indeed tests for me and so far I have been patient al-hamdulillah.. But we all have our limits and sometimes we break...This skin inflammation has been causing me to be moody and it is aggravated by constant insensitive comemnts about me being overweight/my face is chubby which is in fact due to the skin inflammation (I got such comments even when I was at my fittest; was playing sports at nationals then. sigh)

I told a sister about all that has happened to me and she told me about a brother who said that when we make dua, we shouldnt ask Allah to make us to be more patient because then we would be tested even more. Instead, we should ask for Allah's Rahmah to ease our difficulties. That caught me off guard because after I read about a sis leaving Islaam, I had that sudden fear that I would not be able to face any calamaties patiently and would resort to actually leaving the Deen. So everyday, I made a point to make dua for me to be patient in times of difficulty. Leaving the Deen should never be an option.

Allahu'alam. Whatever that I am going through now is the decree as well. The pen has written, the ink has dried, there is nothing I can do about it but persevere. Make dua for me insha Allah that I will get through it. At least the lump at the back of my head and skin inflammation aren't dangerous although the signs and symptoms I had all pointed towards cancer at first. Al-hamdulillah, that is something to be thankful for at least.